Today is Friday. Woo! On Fridays I'm going to have a series, Blast from the Past, mainly so I don't have to write anything new. However, it could be interesting tracing someone's first inklings of *gasp* the Gay *ungasp*. Anyways here is the first installment written about M!
October 02, 2008
I think of kissing you. How would I feel? Would it just be the dull feeling? Would it be an explosion of sexual energy? You bitch about life and I think it's cute. I love being alone with you. I love making you laugh. I want to spend all my time with you. Am I in love with you? But here you are with a fiancé. Will your marriage be successful? I can tell we wouldn't be good in a relationship, but still I can't keep from thinking what it would be like to kiss you. I think about hugging you, your warmth. I spend all this time wondering. And I will forever wonder until I find another man. Will I accept marriage like my father did only to lead to the unhappiness of my spouse? For now I live in a limbo, not knowing. You'll never know how I felt about you. I love you. You make me question who I am.
QBP: "I am the love that dare not speak its name." -Lord Alfred Douglas